Guess where I am...if you said shopping at the Galleria, you are wrong...but really close (not)...I am in the hospital. Basically my cramping kept me up all night, and I finally had to break down and call...they still haven't checked my cervix to see if it is closed or what (which I think is weird) but they did put me on Mag...which is short for Magnesium...makes you feel like you have the flu...and gives you a headache...the plan as I know it, is to keep me on Mag until Sunday, then send me home on different medicine....see this is how it works...I have been on the tocolytic Ventilin since 13 weeks (I am now 20 weeks), what Ventilin does is blocks the receptors that cause the cramping/contractions that I have been having, but Ventilin doesn't last forever...Eventually those receptors become somewhat immune to the Ventilin, making the medicine not work, so they put me on Mag to kinda "re-set" those receptors so that I can go back on the Ventilin and hopefully have less cramping than I have for the last couple weeks.
My brother Ben came in yesterday, and has been a really big help. He has been taking care of Kaylyn since this morning when Stephen brought me in...my mom is supposed to be here on Saturday, so Ben will have to watch her all of tomorrow too (although Stephen is around, but he has to work)...I miss Kaylyn already...this morning I was crying to Ben, and Kaylyn was right there...Ben was saying take a deep breath...I sat down to try and calm myself, and Kaylyn walked over to me and said, " take a deep breath mommy"...I think when I get upset I will try and remember her telling me that...I thank God for Kaylyn everyday...