Today has been sort of depressing for me. My mom left bright and early this morning, I guess I am always a little depressed when she leaves...she is always so comforting and makes me feel so much better. I guess another reason I am depressed is b/c although I am getting close to where I would be able to get up more, I actually can't get up...b/c of my blood pressure. With Kaylyn I didn't have this issue, so at around 34 weeks I got up more and more...but with this one, honestly it isn't safe. When I take my blood pressure sitting up it is usually ok, laying down my blood pressure is fine...but the kicker is when I stand up, the bottom number is over 80...which means I am going to have to continue to lay around possibly until I deliver...which I know at a maximum is only 7 weeks away, but I am on my 20th week of bed rest...I just want to be able to go shopping for this new baby, maybe have a few weeks before he arrives to clean my house, get things ready, like I did with Kaylyn, it just isn't looking good for my plans...so depressing.

An update on my hand, I guess it looks better...have you ever really burned the crap out of yourself? Well that is what my sores look like...they are bright red/purple, one of them is starting to not be as raised up, the other two are still raised looking a little bit...I just want these things to flipping go away! I try and let them air out, but then I just stare at them, and get upset at being such a freak of nature.

My mom is coming back on Thursday and staying until Sunday...mainly her visit is to keep me in check, but also Stephen is going to a wedding all day/evening on Saturday. I am sure we could have found someone to watch Kaylyn on Saturday, but I viewed it as a great excuse to recruit my mom back down here. So that is really all that is going on here...Kaylyn has been doing a horrible job sleeping through the night, so I am pretty tired...not that I can get up and help, but I can't sleep knowing she is awake. Let's hope for a good night tonight...oh on the ticker below you can go ahead and subtract 10 days from the number of days I have left, since it is counting until Oct 20, and we know good and well I will not be pregnant after Oct 10th. Peace out-