I can't believe that in less than 48 hours my stitch will be out and I will be off of my medicine. It is really a weird feeling, I mean, I want so bad to get up and get on with my life...but I am scared...especially of how my delivery will go, and what it will be like when I am at home and start to feel the true onset of labor...I mean I have been fighting pain for the past few weeks, and that has been scary, I am just afraid that I am going to wait too long to get to the hospital...I guess once the stitch is out, I just need to go in if I start to feel the same things that I have been feeling for the past few weeks, b/c I won't have the stitch to hold milli in there anymore. Also I am a little scared about milli coming before he is full term. Statistically he should be fine, but I guess there are no guarantees. He will be close to full term, it is such an internal conflict that I think about all the time...I want him out, but I don't, but I do...you get the picture. I guess he could stay in there after the stitch is out and I am off my medicine...which I guess could be good, but I will still have to lay on my couch until he comes b/c of my blood pressure. BOOO! While I am talking about being scared, I am scared off my rocker about the c-section thing...they show those flipping things on TV all the time, and I am like oh my gosh, I can't believe I am going to do that...so freaky...I reserve the right to change my mind and have him the old fashioned way at any point. My body, my decision. So those are my fears...I try not to think about them too much, but honestly, when you are just laying around, things tend to creep into your mind over and over again...or maybe that is me going crazy...whatever.