In the hospital since Tuesday...can't use my right hand b/c the only vein they haven't destroyed is in my right hand between my knuckles...so this will be a short post. My doctor is out of town until Monday, so I could be stuck here until then. I am having to deal with another doctor in her practice and man she is a bitch. I have definitely reached a low point in regards to my mental state...crying about 4 or 5 times a day. Part of the reason I am keeping this blog is so I remember what I went through, so I don't do this to myself again...as soon as Kaylyn came out I literally forgot everything Stephen and I went through...I feel so trapped, and betrayed by my own body, and helpless...sorry this is a depressing post, but you get what you pay for...might be while till I post again, but I will try.Please pray for my mind and milli and our family...