Hello my peeps…still in the hospital…the doctor is “weaning” me down on the mag to see what I do…but she is putting me on a low dose of the ventolin, which was what I was taking during my last heart episode, but since the dosage is half I guess she figures we will try this. So far my contractions are ok…but I am still on some mag, she might stop it tonight and see how I am by morning. This is all speculation b/c I haven’t seen her today, I will probably see her tomorrow. My mom has spent the night with me up here since she came in on Saturday. She has to keep me in check. I keep having panic attacks…which by the way, I am now taking Paxil (to control my anxiety). I am not sure how many of you out there can relate to panic/anxiety attacks…but man they are no fun…hopefully the Paxil will get my emotions in check…I hate that I need to have medicine to make me not crazy, I feel like every other woman in my situation would be able to just get over it, and that I am a super wimp…

Kaylyn has come to see me the past 3 days in a row. I am able to go on wheel chair rides once a day and either go outside, or wheel around the hospital etc. so I have been saving my rides for when Kaylyn comes. She sits next to me in the wheel chair and will insist on holding my IV tubing (I think the IV and tubing really scares her). She will hold the tubing so still while Stephen pushes me and my mom wheels the IV pole next to us. We are quite the entourage. She is coming again tonight…maybe that is selfish making her come see me, but I think we need to see each other, and it makes me feel better…maybe it makes her feel better too?

I will keep you all posted…I still have this IV in my right hand, so I don’t like to type so much…peace out. Oh..PS..praise the Lord we are in August!!