This past weekend, my family came and went like a mini tornado...ok maybe it wasn't mini...it was fun for me though, it gave me alot to watch from the couch, my mom cooked delicious meals, and the weekend went by extremely fast. I was a little emotional when everyone left on Sunday...but my brother Jeff is still here. His car had to have major repairs, leaving him somewhat trapped in Houston. Don't tell him, but I am secretly hoping he remains trapped until the weekend...in case you forgot, this is the weekend that Stephen is abandoning me and taking Kaylyn with him. Being alone is going to be so hard for me. I can't really describe why it is so hard for me...Actually I can, I think way too much when I am alone and don't have people to distract me from my contractions...which means I focus on them, and that makes them worse. Maybe I will make my mom come here...if it gets too bad.

On another note, I went to the doctor today. It was an alright visit, my cervix has some length, but my doctor actually said, "this is what we don't like to see"...she was referring to the fact that my cervix is thinning down to the stitch, I should have asked what happens if it does get down to the stitch, but I am not sure I want to know...come on cervix!! just last a few more months!! I need a cervix transplant.

I have to leave you with a very sad story today...after every doctors appointment, I call my mom and tell her what my doctor said etc. Well today when I called she was out front...and we where talking...all the sudden she heard (and I could hear through the phone) what sounded like a gun shot. She went inside, and was joking that she was checking herself to make sure she wasn't shot. We resolved ourselves to thinking it must have been a firework being shot off, since fourth of July is right around the corner. A few hours later my mom called and said that my neighbor had committed suicide. His name was David, he had a wife and two grown kids, and a grandson. He was severely depressed, and I think he had some health problems...just so sad to me that he felt he had to end his life. I pray he is in a better place now.